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I wanted to thank all of my mothers and their supportive families in my move to San Diego.

 Your births were beautiful, and life changing. And thank you for letting me be part of that experience.

But as with birth, things change and life continues on.

I’m now in Sunny San Diego expanding my labor assistant practice to the Golden Coast.

For you Cali mom’s welcome to the most beautiful time of your lives!

I will be heading to UCSD to work with in their Doula Volunteer program.

Thanks for the laughs, the tears and the challenges!

Nature is to birth, as the Moon is to the Sea.
“You must first be the change you want to see in the world.”- Gandhi

Court OKs Repeated Tasering of Pregnant Woman

* By David Kravets Email Author
* March 29, 2010 |

http://www.wired.com/threatlevel/2010/03/pregnant_woman_tasered/

Federal appeals court says three Seattle police officers did not employ excessive force when they repeatedly tasered a visibly pregnant woman for refusing to sign a speeding ticket.

The lawyer representing Malaika Brooks said Monday that the court’s 2-1 decision sanctioned “pain compliance” tactics through a modern-day version of the cattle prod.

“To inflict pain on a person if that person is not doing what the police want that person to do is simply outrageous,” said Eric Zubel, the woman’s attorney. “I cannot say that loud enough.”

Zubel said he would ask the San Francisco-based 9th U.S. Circuit Court of Appeals to rehear Friday’s 2-1 decision that drew a sharp dissent from Judge Marsha Berzon:

“Refusing to sign a speeding ticket was at the time a nonarrestable misdemeanor; now, in Washington, it is not even that. Brooks had no weapons and had not harmed or threatened to harm a soul,” (.pdf) Berzon wrote. “Although she had told the officers she was seven months pregnant, they proceeded to use a Taser on her, not once but three times, causing her to scream with pain and leaving burn marks and permanent scars.”

The majority noted that the M26 Taser was set in “stun mode” and did not cause as much pain as when set on “dart mode.” The majority noted that the circuit’s recent and leading decision on the issue concerned excessive force in the context of a Taser being set on Dart mode, which causes “neuro-muscular incapacitation.”

Stun mode, the court noted, didn’t rise to the level of excessive force because it imposes “temporary, localized pain only.”

The majority reversed a lower court judge who said the woman’s rights were violated. The lower court’s failure to distinguish between the two levels of pain modes “led the court to err in finding excessive force.”

The woman was driving her 12-year-old to the African American Academy in Seattle when she was pulled over on suspicion of speeding in 2004. The child left the car for school and a verbal spat with the police resulted in the woman receiving three, 50,000-volt shocks, first to her thigh, then shoulder and neck while she was in her vehicle. An officer was holding Brooks’ arm behind Brooks’ back while she was being shocked.

Brooks gave the officer her driver’s license, but Brooks refused to sign the ticket — believing it was akin to signing a confession. She was ultimately arrested for refusing to sign and to comply with officers asking her to exit the vehicle.

“A suspect who repeatedly refuses to comply with instructions or leave her car escalates the risk involved for officers unable to predict what type of noncompliance might come next,” Judge Cynthia Holcomb Hall wrote for the majority. She was joined by Judge Diarmuid F. O’Scannlain.

“Therefore, while using the Taser three times makes this a closer case, we find that it does not show excessive force in light of the corresponding escalation of Brooks’ resistance and the fact that it was the third tasing that appeared to dislodge her such that the officers could finally extract her from her car and gain control over her,” Hall wrote.

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Cannababies
By Reverend Damuzi – Monday, July 4 2005
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Cannabis and pregnancy

Birth by cannabis
Kelly sat propped by pillows, exhausted, shaking with each contraction. She’d been in labor for several days, and she was nearing the end of her ability to cope.

Situations like this have been known to be life-threatening, but no one talked about that at the time because maintaining Kelly’s self-confidence was crucial. And so was the joint of fine, organic outdoor that was being rolled in the next room, grown lovingly by a trusted friend of the expectant mother.

When I first spoke to Kelly (not her real name), I was surprised by her openness. She was eight months pregnant, and said she was going to smoke cannabis during her labor “if necessary.” She hadn’t smoked recreationally for a decade, but was advised by her midwife that cannabis might be the answer for a stalled labor. Her last pregnancy had delivered a stillborn baby, in part because it had taken too long to deliver. She agreed to my presence on the condition that I not use her real name and because, she said, I’m a Reverend: I could perform last rights if her child didn’t make it this time.

A month later, while Kelly struggled to give birth, I asked Kelly’s midwife what gave her the idea that pot might be good for pregnant women. I was presented with Susun Weed’s book, Wise Woman’s Herbal for the Childbearing Year.1

In it, Weed advises that cannabis is an “oxytocic herb” that “can help relax the controlling mind and bring attention to the needs of the body, as well as strengthen the needed contractions.”1 Weed explains that cannabis, combined with hemostatic herbs like Witch Hazel or Lady’s Mantle, can also slow uterine hemorrhages after birth.2
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I later learned that Susun Weed’s book is considered a core resource for anyone studying herbalism and women’s health today. Weed has written four books; her first, The Childbearing Year, is currently enjoying a monumental 29th printing.

Although Weed has forgone the acquisition of academic credentials, she has taught health care professionals at prestigious universities throughout the world, and is formally acknowledged as a leader in her field. She founded her own school of herbalism, regularly contributes to the Routledge International Encyclopedia of Women’s Studies, is included in the Who’s Who of Intellectuals, was awarded the Twentieth Century Award for Achievement and was honored as an Outstanding Person of the 20th Century.

If anyone can be trusted to deliver the facts about cannabis and health, it is Susun Weed. For those still in doubt, her assertions about the herb’s powers are backed by literally thousands of years of use, observations and studies.

I put her important book down by an open window, where a cold wind reminded me that summer was nearly over. I considered the candle, book of prayers and anointing oil in my bag ? my tools of final unction ? and as my thoughts returned to Kelly’s ordeal, I couldn’t help but shiver at the thought that she and her baby might not survive.

When I returned to the room, Kelly was puffing languidly, with the help of an attendant who held her arm steady. Her smoky medicine drifted down to her side and was snatched up before it landed on a pillow. Almost miraculously, within a couple of minutes she was sitting up, and her birth partner was shaken awake from another dark corner of the room. She began breathing and the contractions came on more forcefully. Within an hour she delivered.

Afterwards she spoke about her experience.

“My birth was such a mystical experience after I smoked,” she enthused. “I started doing some real breathing, joining with my birth partner. I felt my chakras align with the Great Mother and with the baby. I had a prolapsed cervical lip, and the baby was turned sideways in the birth canal. I could suddenly feel it all inside me. So I did my own surgery. I reached in and pulled the cervical lip back and it dilated within seconds.

“Then I went outside and the sun was rising. I was staring into the sunlight, and in that moment I felt the burning of the so-called ‘ring of fire’ when your [vagina] is totally open. I was crowning for 15 minutes. If I was in any hospital they would have sliced me open! The next thing I know the baby was out of me and in my arms. My sweet little baby girl!”

Some might argue that it is always better to give birth in a hospital, with medical professionals available in case of emergency. Yet for those who wish to use a natural herb like cannabis during pregnancy, giving birth in a hospital can lead to persecution, imprisonment and having their baby taken away.

Shackled after birth

While Kelly held her newborn babe, saved by the grace of ganja, another mother was facing persecution for using med-pot while pregnant, thousands of kilometers away, in Texas.

Alma Baker had used the herb during her pregnancy, to treat nausea and increase her appetite. But shortly after she gave birth in Northwest Texas Hospital, she and her twin babies were drug tested. Both Baker and her children were found positive for cannabis. Under interrogation by police, she admitted to taking occasional tokes in her backyard, and was charged with trafficking to her fetuses.

The practice of drug testing pregnant moms without their consent was ruled unconstitutional by the US Supreme Court in 2001 after shocking allegations were raised against a state hospital in Charleston, South Carolina, where non-consentual drug testing was the norm since 1989. Some moms were arrested immediately after childbirth, shackled to the table while still bleeding, and subsequently dragged off to jail.

A class-action suit by some of these women overturned the practice in the US Supreme Court in 2001,3 but despite the court ruling, newborn babies in South Carolina are still routinely tested for the presence of banned drugs. If an infant tests positive, police are informed immediately, and the mother faces mandatory treatment or jail time. For example, in December 2004, a South Carolina judge sentenced Pamela Cruz-Reyes to four years in prison after she and her newborn both tested positive for cocaine.

Unlike the feisty South Carolina women who fought their charges, marijuana-smoking mother-of-twins Alma Baker plead guilty to the charges of trafficking to her fetuses last June, was fined $1,000, forced to take parenting classes and serve 250 hours of community service.

This punishment is a major drain on a new mother with two babies to care for, but still a lighter sentence than she might have gotten. Normally, trafficking in the state of Texas carries a punishment of two to 20 years in prison.4

Baker’s charges were based on a new Texas state law, the Prenatal Protection Act, which has women’s rights groups protesting. The law expands the definition of “individual” to include unborn children, and is based on a national policy drafted by George W Bush earlier in 2004 that similarly expands the definition. According to Republican spin doctors, the change was made so that medical coverage could be extended to the unborn child. The policy change was followed in April with the signing of the Unborn Victims of Violence Act.

The ACLU was one of the first organizations to recognize some of the dangers of the new federal policy. On the day of the act’s signing into law, Laura Murphy, Director of the ACLU Washington Legislative Office, railed against the policy’s duplicity in a press release.

“Congress could have chosen to protect pregnant women from violence without assaulting reproductive rights, but it failed to do so,” she said. “There is little doubt that this law is a thinly veiled attempt to create fetal rights and undermine reproductive freedom.”

What the ACLU missed in their zeal to protect abortion rights, and what would soon become apparent with Baker’s arrest, was that the new federal policy might also be used to go after moms who use pot during pregnancy. In fact, it seemed tailor-made to address a historic series of court cases that had been frustrating anti-drug prosecutors for decades.

Fetal drug trafficking

In her excellently documented book From Witches to Crack Moms, University of Victoria Professor Susan Boyd traced pregnant prosecutions back to the 1977 case of Margaret Velasques Reyes, who was charged with child endangerment by the state of California for taking mind-altering drugs while pregnant. The charges against Reyes didn’t stick, however, because the state ruled that the law only applied to live, born children. While still in the womb, they weren’t considered “individuals.”5

After Reyes’ victory, prosecutors tried a new angle. They laid charges against a mom for trafficking to her fetus in the seconds between her child’s birth and the moment the umbilical cord was cut. Jennifer Johnson was convicted of the crime in 1989, but appealed her case with the help of the ACLU and won.

The Bush administration’s new definition of “individual” means that these two women would likely have lost their cases.

Death by pharmaceuticals

Some would say that it is irresponsible for any expectant mother to use cannabis during pregnancy. They argue that it is safest for pregnant women to stick to mainstream medical treatments and pharmaceutical drugs.

Yet physicians today are not very adept at healing situations like prolonged labor or extreme nausea. The modern medical establishment’s only attempt to help mothers suffering from extreme nausea was a disaster: a drug known as Thalidomide. Thousands of babies were born without arms and legs around the world during the 1970’s, as a result of Thalidomide prescriptions.

Since Thalidomide was taken off the market, medical practitioners have been wary of developing aggressive medications aimed at preventing severe nausea.

Yet we have a rough equivalent to Thalidomide today in the form of the drug Cytotec. Doctors commonly administer Cytotec to hasten prolonged labors, or even to speed up a normal labor ? both of which could be stimulated more safely with cannabis. In many cases, babies of Cytotec-dosed moms are delivered intact, but the consequences of not waiting for a natural labor can also be heinous.

The most damning evidence of its dangers to pregnant moms is Cytotec manufacturer Searle’s own warning, issued to doctors, that it should not be used to hasten delivery. Then there’s the US Food and Drug warning that Cytotec can cause “abortion, premature birth, birth defects, and uterine rupture.”

Yet according to a story by investigative journalist David Goodman that appeared in Mother Jones magazine’s January/February 2001 issue, these warnings are not enough to stop doctors from using Cytotec. Goodman told the horror story of Suzanne Altomare who was dosed on Cytotec without being warned of its dangers. She suffered a uterine rupture, her baby dropped into her abdomen, suffocated and was delivered brain-dead. Like other expectant moms who suffered Cytotec-induced tragedies, Altomare lost both her baby and her uterus in the procedure, meaning that she would never be able to fill her loss with the birth of another child. A Freedom of Information Act filed by the magazine revealed that in the three years before Goodman’s article, at least 30 other women had suffered uterine rupture due to Cytotec.

Ina Mae Gaskin ? who helped lead a modern revival of interest in midwifery as part of the 60’s back-to-the-land movement, and whose book Sacred Midwifery is considered an essential read by midwives everywhere ? told Cannabis Culture that doctors still use Cytotec today, and many still fail to warn would-be moms of the potential consequences.

“It’s all about perceived convenience,” she said. “But not for the women. If she suffers from it, that’s anything but convenient. I don’t know how many people have to die before it becomes a subject that’s opened by the major media. This drug, Cytotec, is at least as dangerous as crack, probably way more so. Some deaths get swept under the rug in America and some don’t.”

Meanwhile, although there are no serious complications reported from cannabis, many mothers still face the loss of their children and time in prison if they use it while pregnant. When it comes to treating conditions like extreme nausea or stalled labors, pregnant women need legal, free access to the herbs that have been safely used for generations.

Cannabinoid deficiency syndrome

A serious ailment suffered by many pregnant women is Hyperemesis gravidarum (HG), a devastating illness which causes vomiting, malnutrition, dehydration, severe weight loss, blood clots, and more serious problems including inflamed pancreas, bloody stool, paralysis, blindness, coma and, in severe cases, death of both mother and child. Some have described it as “morning sickness times a million.”

There is no safe and effective known pharmaceutical treatment for HG, but many women have found immediate relief from nausea and HG through the use of cannabis.

Cannabis-medicine expert and MD Ethan Russo, the Senior Medical Advisor to UK med-pot corporation GW Pharmaceuticals, has suggested that HG may be one of a class of illnesses caused by “endocannabinoid deficiency syndrome.” (Endocannabinoids are the natural body chemicals which are mimicked by THC and other cannabinoids.)

In his paper, Clinical Endocannabinoid Deficiency (CED), Russo explores this syndrome in depth. He concludes that CED may cause several illnesses, including glaucoma, for scientists have shown conclusively that the mechanism involved in regulating the eyes’ internal pressure is under “tonic endocannabinoid control.”

Similarly, writes Russo, endocannabinoid systems have been implicated in migraine, fibromyalgia, irritable bowel syndrome and HG.

Accordingly, an HG sufferer who uses cannabis is merely supplementing her body’s inability to produce cannabinoids itself.

? Clinical Endocannabinoid Deficiency by Dr Ethan B Russo. Neuroendocrinology Letters. Vol 25. February-April 2004.

Pot & pregnancy throughout history

In the Eber Papyrus, the ancient Egyptians noted the use of cannabis to induce contractions.

In Israel in 1993, researchers found the skeleton of a 14-year-old girl who died while giving birth because the baby’s head was too big for her to deliver. The researchers concluded that an ancient midwife may have administered cannabis in an attempt to encourage the delivery, for carbonized cannabis residue was found in the tomb.

The Ninth Century Persian medical expert Sabur Ibn Sahl noted the use of cannabis in his Al-Aqrabadhin Al-Saghir. According to Sahl, the juice of cannabis seeds and other herbs were mixed together to prevent miscarriage and relieve pain in the uterus.

The Codex Vindobonensis, thought to be a 13th Century Italian copy of an earlier, possibly Roman work, describes the use of cannabis for stimulating milk flow in mothers.

The Chinese medical text Pen T’sao Kang Mu, written by Shih-Chen in 1596, described the use of hemp root juice to retain the placenta and prevent hemorrhage immediately after birth.

German folk medicine of the 1800’s recommended rubbing a cannabis preparation on the swelling breasts of new mothers to relieve pain.

In 1851, Dr Alexander Christison used tincture of cannabis to successfully treat pregnant women who suffered from stalled labors, inducing many successful births. His work was reproduced by Dr Grigor the next year.

In 1854, the Dispensatory of the United States acknowledged the use of cannabis to hasten a stalled labor. Subsequently, many doctors in the US and France described their resounding successes in using pot to speed stalled deliveries.

In 1862, Wright noted that cannabis was excellent for relieving nausea and vomiting during pregnancy. He noted one case of extreme nausea: His patient was “suffering to an extent that threatened death, with vomiting” and none of his traditional remedies worked. When treated with cannabis, however, the illness retreated immediately.

The 1800’s saw doctors in the US, France, Britain, and India recognize cannabis’ usefulness in treating uterine bleeding. The same was noted by Sajous and Sajous in 1924.

In 1880, French doctors noted cannabis’ benefits in cases where women hemorrhaged profusely after childbirth.

In 1893-94, the Indian Hemp Drugs Commission noted the use of cannabis for prolonged labor.

In 1903, in the US, Dr Bartholow noted the use of cannabis for promoting uterine contractions and was quoted in popular medical texts. The same was noted again in 1924, by Doctors Sajous and Sajous.

In 1960, in Czechoslovakia, a team of investigators discovered that cannabis extract in alcohol and glycerin was excellent for treating tears in the nipples of nursing mothers and thus prevented infection and mastitis.

In 1975, Martin noted that Cambodian mothers used an infusion of flowering cannabis tops and other herbs to stimulate milk production when it was low.

In 1997, Dr Melanie Dreher published her study of Jamaican women which found that they frequently employed cannabis, without any harm to the baby, to prevent nausea during pregnancy.

In a 2003 report, Dr Ester Fride of the College of Judea and Samaria explained how scientists discovered that mother’s milk was also controlled by the endocannabinoid system, and that cannabinoids are even found in the luscious liquid itself. Cannabinoids in mother’s milk, says Fride, are “critical for survival” as they stimulate the initiation of suckling in the newborn.

A 2004 study published in the Journal of Clinical Endocrinology and Metabolism showed that a pregnant woman’s level of anandamide, the natural body chemical which is mimicked by THC, rises by about four times when she goes into labor. Researchers tentatively concluded that the rise of anandamide could be the body’s way of inducing labor. This begins to explain how using cannabis helps a stalled labor. Other recent studies have also shown a high concentration of cannabinoid receptors in the uterus.

? Many of these references were taken from Cannabis Treatments in Obstetrics and Gynecology: An Historical Review, by Dr Ethan Russo, MD. The Haworth Press. 2002.

Studying toking moms

Some of the best research into the effects that cannabis-using moms have on their children has been done by Dr Melanie Dreher, Dean and Professor at the University of Iowa’s College of Nursing (CC#15, Dr Melanie Dreher, reefer researcher).

Earlier, methodologically flawed studies done in the US showed that among pot-using pregnant moms, children had a lower birth weight and were more likely to suffer Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. But these studies compared pot-smoking women who lived at the poverty level with non-tokers who enjoyed a higher standard of living.

When Dreher corrected for the poverty level by doing a cross-cultural study in Jamaica, she found that children of pot-using pregnant women were more well adjusted, better organized, had “more robust motor and autonomic systems,” were less irritable, and were “more rewarding for caregivers.”

FOOTNOTES

1) Wise Woman’s Herbal for the Childbearing Year, by Susun S Weed. Ash Tree, Woodstock, NY. 1986. p 64.
2) Weed, p 72.
3) From Witches to Crack Moms: Women, Drug Law and Policy, by Susan C Boyd. Carolina Academic Press, Durham, NC. 2004. pp 112-113.
4) Newborn Twins on Drugs at Birth, by Jim McBride. The Amarillo Globe-News, Texas. June 12, 2004.
5) Boyd, p 108.
6) Criminal Prosecutions Against Pregnant Women, by Paltrow. Reproductive freedom project, NY. 1992.
7) Prenatal Marijuana Exposure and Neonatal Outcomes in Jamaica: An Ethnographic Study, by Melanie C Dreher, Kevin Nugent, and Rebekah Hudgins. Pediatrics, Vol 93, Issue 2, pp 254-260. February 1994.

In the weeks to come I will be going over the pros and medical uses of Cannabis as a medicinal herb to help maintain and facilitate a healthy pregnancy and an easier birth.

My goal is to cut away myths, bad propaganda and to bring as much scientific data, truth and reality to the taboo…of Cannabis!

Midwife-led versus other models of care for childbearing women

Hatem M, Sandall J, Devane D, Soltani H, Gates S
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Summary
Midwife-led versus other models of care for childbearing women

Midwife-led care confers benefits for pregnant women and their babies and is recommended.

In many parts of the world, midwives are the primary providers of care for childbearing women. Elsewhere it may be medical doctors or family physicians who have the main responsibility for care, or the responsibility may be shared. The underpinning philosophy of midwife-led care is normality, continuity of care and being cared for by a known and trusted midwife during labour. There is an emphasis on the natural ability of women to experience birth with minimum intervention. Some models of midwife-led care provide a service through a team of midwives sharing a caseload, often called ‘team’ midwifery. Another model is ‘caseload midwifery’, where the aim is to offer greater continuity of caregiver throughout the episode of care. Caseload midwifery aims to ensure that the woman receives all her care from one midwife or her/his practice partner. All models of midwife-led care are provided in a multi-disciplinary network of consultation and referral with other care providers. By contrast, medical-led models of care are where an obstetrician or family physician is primarily responsible for care. In shared-care models, responsibility is shared between different healthcare professionals.

The review of midwife-led care covered midwives providing care antenatally, during labour and postnatally. This was compared with models of medical-led care and shared care, and identified 11 trials, involving 12,276 women. Midwife-led care was associated with several benefits for mothers and babies, and had no identified adverse effects.

The main benefits were a reduction in the use of regional analgesia, with fewer episiotomies or instrumental births. Midwife-led care also increased the woman’s chance of being cared for in labour by a midwife she had got to know, and the chance of feeling in control during labour, having a spontaneous vaginal birth and initiating breastfeeding. However, there was no difference in caesarean birth rates.

Women who were randomised to receive midwife-led care were less likely to lose their baby before 24 weeks’ gestation, although there were no differences in the risk of losing the baby after 24 weeks, or overall. In addition, babies of women who were randomised to receive midwife-led care were more likely to have a shorter length of hospital stay.

The review concluded that most women should be offered midwife-led models of care, although caution should be exercised in applying this advice to women with substantial medical or obstetric complications.

This is a Cochrane review abstract and plain language summary, prepared and maintained by The Cochrane Collaboration, currently published in The Cochrane Database of Systematic Reviews 2010 Issue 3, Copyright © 2010 The Cochrane Collaboration. Published by John Wiley and Sons, Ltd.. The full text of the review is available in The Cochrane Library (ISSN 1464-780X).
This record should be cited as: Hatem M, Sandall J, Devane D, Soltani H, Gates S. Midwife-led versus other models of care for childbearing women. Cochrane Database of Systematic Reviews 2008, Issue 4. Art. No.: CD004667. DOI: 10.1002/14651858.CD004667.pub2.

This version first published online: October 08. 2008

http://www2.cochrane.org/reviews/en/ab004667.html

Wording of the Health Keepers Oath

As a Health Care Worker, Student, Administrator or Support Person
I Swear My Talents, Skills and Knowledge Will Not Be Used to
Perform Eugenicide or Destroy the Rule of Legitimate, Ethical and Humane Law

I understand my moral obligations under civilized medical ethics to “Do no harm.” I understand my legal obligations under the Nuremberg Code and the Declaration of Helsinki of the World Medical Association to stand against the abuse of health care by political institutions. I will not administer any substance which I know to be used to harm or kill any person entrusted to my care, nor will I process, record or otherwise facilitate the internment, involuntary medical incarceration, elimination or extermination of any person.

True to this Oath, intention and professional calling, I will defend and guard the life and freedom of those whom I serve or whose lives, records or well-being I touch. I know that medical systems have been used in the past to abduct, detain, experiment upon and kill innocent civilians and I am mindful of the possibility for that unconscionable pattern to be repeated in my time, my facility and my life. I will follow the path of ethical restraint and honest disclosure rather than follow the path of silent acquiescence. I know that my calling means that I am bound to first “Do no harm.” Therefore, I give my solemn oath that I will not allow harm to be done by either word, silence, deed or inaction, the existence of any political declaration of local, state, national or international medical emergency not withstanding.

I am a health care professional, not an agent of State-mediated death and will conduct myself in accord with that identify. I swear, to all future generations, “Never again” will the health care professions be used, as they were in Nazi Germany and the Soviet Empire, to murder and oppress any individual. Never Again! Never here! Never on my watch!

She had been laboring for three days, and twice they sent her home without an idea that she was suffering from an OP baby, you know, the kind that give you a pain in the back, and meet the world face up?

When I finally arrived at the hospital my young mother was a wreck. She lay out stretched on the hospital bed, wired and hosed like an old T.V from the 80’s. Her left arm held the Iv, her right was the pulse ox, the BP cuff,and strapped across her large round protruding belly was the beast.
The fetal monitor.

I sighed, disheartened, this was to be my first. My very FIRST birth on my own, with no mentor, no guide, no soothing gentle well worn hand of the Doulas who had seen a thousand births before me.

She was my first, and she already had an epidural.

DAMN.

She was sweet, young and exhausted. her partner, nervous as a march hare listened to each word I said, each reassuring, honest, fact based, science proven word. I saw his shoulders ease as did hers when I gently rested my hand on her belly and felt her first son respond to my ginger touch. Like a flutter of a hundred butterfly wings, I felt his feet.

But soon the quiet of our meeting and the soothing of my words was thrown to the way side my a noisy, blustering OB who insisted on checking my sleepy mom’s cervix at that moment, in her first moment of sleeping peace.

Damn. I wanted to chase them out.

I wanted to let her relax and start this on her own.He insisted on breaking her bag of waters, touting …”Now don’t worry, this will get the birth started no time…” But little did he mention the devisating fact that nearly 99% of premature babies comes from an idle OB insisting that the time is now rather then natures hand.

DAMN.

But I was the alien visitor, along side with the relaxed dressed father, and the poor institutionalized mother. I stood out against their familiar pale green, my own brilliant blue shirt, and earth toned pants made me a site for their sharp eyes.

The OB eyed my speculatively as he watched the Mother’s partner turn to me for a nod, or shake of the head. He had broken the sac before my tired eyed father had a chance to argue otherwise, while his partner watched on with confusion, after she rejected the offer. But it was done.

My heart sank as he then mentioned the risks, post bag breaking. Now he tells her that if she doesn’t deliver in 24 hours she will be subject to a Cesarean section. I  saw the fear swallow my mother, the easing and patients of the hours before gone in a single flush of carelessly placed words. With his task done, and waters dripping from the bed, he left us, soaking in our thoughts.

My mind reeled as I came to sit beside them while the nurse pushed a towel around my mothers back side. She clasped my hands and asked if what he said was true.

I smiled again, but she was no fool and read my face. Leaning back on her pillow, hand in mine, she turned with her clipped Spanish accent.

“Then, we must be the clock!” With a firm squeeze I replied…”There are NO clocks in birth, no time, no hours. Only moments, let us not worry about that ‘moment’ until we get there.”

Part I. END

Equal protection for all. Its illegal here in America to circumcise a baby girl…why is it still OK to assault an infant boy with an unnecessary not medically indicated surgery?